maandag 29 december 2014
zondag 28 december 2014
black
i only want beautiful
i only want good
i only want the sweetest things
not to be misunderstood
and everything is pink
all is light
everything is warm and starry
every luminating night
there's no black
give it no thought or word
it 'll eat you up and spit you out
while we could be birds.
~sev.
education
i want to be the princess
but i'm barely a girl
i want to feel like the empress
if i ever find a place in this world.
i make me
with literature and art
all the things that i see.
they just make me more restless
there's fucking more that i can be.
someday i'll be the queen
with love like fire
and words like stone
all i desire
is not this carcase of bones.
~sev.
woensdag 10 december 2014
weather report
you're not the sun
shining through my window
nor the ocean
with waves skyhigh and blue.
you never were butterflies,
sugar or rainbows.
you're the storm, howling in my body
you're thunder growling in my head
and love, love, love
like a fire never to rest.
~sev.
woensdag 5 november 2014
x
in pieces cause you're gone again
never thought i would love again
never thought my blood
would rush and pump like this again
you told me secrets, never lies
your words are poisoning my mind
inhale your love
it's the only thing i wanna feel right now
can't hold no grudge
cause babe you told me everything,
and now that i know, you're everything.
~sev.
zondag 26 oktober 2014
your nocturne
tell me words that are true
and why my mind doesn't belong to my body
if you're the only one coming through
hold my human parts together
show me all the ways i can be
braid my hair, make me feel better
open my eyes, let me believe
i'll give you Van Gogh flowers
i'll give you nocturnes and symphonies
let us grow in a world that's ours
let us be more than memories.
~sev.
woensdag 22 oktober 2014
Cracks
all of your love, it never came back
all of your heart, slowly turned black
and the world became grey
but you liked it that way
with the doves when they cry
and the spirits when they fly
and the rain pouring,
and the dull mornings
but out comes the sunshine,
that tries to break through
out come the memories
that made you feel blue
here comes the words
that makes you feel feelings
i'd whisper them in your ear
if it wouldn't bring you tears.
~sev.
woensdag 15 oktober 2014
all these nights
lullaby lover
waiting for your goodnight words
so i can pull up my covers
said you didn't felt as good in years
and really, i haven't shed another tear
i wouldnt mind to hear you talk some more
these fairy tales are just so easy to pour
and if you'd say goodbye and leave all your clothes on my bedroom floor
i'd burn them down but keep your ashes in my lungs.
lullaby lover
i hate to give in to my heart
but for once we could pop bottles
and forget about these masks.
~sev.
zondag 12 oktober 2014
dismissed
all the kisses i gave, as dead as your green eyes
all of my heart in decay, when you got it paralyzed
and all the people i loved, who never loved me back
got me on my feet, and right back on track.
i've wandered through your souls
i've seen all of your thoughts
not one of them was gold
not one that has been touched.
~sev.
woensdag 16 juli 2014
confrontation
"what's that supposed to mean?"
you do not want to know
you wouldn't dare to try
cause it's in the deepest of your soul
and it's only out at night
if i remind you of the grimm inside
i guess we're not that different
but i let it see, think and talk for me
while you keep on reminiscing.
~sev.
dinsdag 1 juli 2014
suicidal tendencies.
i watched him walking through my tears
i wanted to scream and jump and murder and explode
but not one thing would help, only silent from my throat
he said he kept on bleeding everyday
and that some of us are suppose to go on in this game
and when you're cut off you're the price to pay
it's not an illness it's just meant this way
he feels it in his fingers, in his veigns
i never thought it would turn out this way
little baby come in my arms and stay
there's so many things i want to tell you
plenty of things i have to show
i'm not a sun, i'm not your starlight
but let me be your living glow.
~sev.
donderdag 26 juni 2014
soul party
it's in the deepest of my being
in the darkest of my soul
the genes in me are changing
i do all cause you said so
i never thought of you as human
never saw you as a man
cause you came and showed you, to us
resurrected from the sand
and we stood so still and silent
momentarily disbelief
what you did to me was magic
but we know you had to leave
i live you, in all my doings
i live you, love, in all i say
i live you, i'll fill your lungs dear
i live you, in counted days
~sev.
maandag 12 mei 2014
who loves the sun
and i'm starting off with yours
no quick glanses, just harsh rejection
no words that'd do me right, not your affection
i'm now passing all the hallways,
descending off the stairs.
i'm cleaning up my act
but you're still messing up my hair
and when i did my round,
when i'm all through and done
i keep thinking about that door, that special one
you kept quiet for a night but you knocked me awake
i wish i could bitch you off,
asking if you learned from your mistakes.
at first i let you peak, next is an embrace.
we love each other right? we know we do anyway.
i guide you to my door, my safe place once again.
no romantic movies, books and songs,
just an open end.
reunite
i sweat you out of my being
you never cracked, you never lied
but we were done with feeling
sometimes you talk to me, when i'm all alone
just your spirit next to me, i'm on my own
and i know we're split souls
but getting older demands more
one day, when you're sick and tired
i hope you can remember home.
zaterdag 10 mei 2014
the weak link
tell me, whats all of it good for
when you got in
they were still not yours
saddest scenario
always seeing what you want
and you fit like a puzzle
actually build up a bond
but they're still not you
you know you will never be theirs
not being lonely, but being the only one
is what got you scared
~sev.
donderdag 10 april 2014
not the world, but the people in it
can you see the world
with your cap so low
and your hair that black?
are you able to feel
with all those clothes tied around you
and a madman's head?
can you walk on earth
with those boots so high
uprooted yourself, upgraded to the sky?
do you participate
or not try at all?
remember you are not the only one
who wonders, hates and feels too small.
~sev.
donderdag 27 maart 2014
9 lifes
never leaves his friends alone
calls them up and let them blow
are you feeling yourself today?
fucks a girl, in fact it was the fourth time
not sure it was the last time
he sure fucks like it's his last time
are you feeling yourself today?
in this city, walk around with high heads
in town or in the southwest
always keep your high heads
never know who to fight yet
are you feeling yourself today?
but you don't wanna be saved
never studied, but studied all her body curves
never dreamed, cause dreams are too pointless to endure
are you feeling yourself today?
or should we just run away?
all alone
what a pity we disgust you
we'll keep wondering what is with you
why you never do the things you'd like to
are you feeling yourself today?
if i don't ask you won't even say
but i know how you got this way
i guess you won't even have to say.
dinsdag 25 maart 2014
call me, definitely
i think about your voice
i never try to shut it out
or reminisce by choice
i can't help but to fall asleep
when we're on the phone
you're everything is calming me
tingling skin to bone
don't hang up, don't skip a call
please don't keep me waiting
one more minute that's all
i'm here for you
if you want me to
we could call all night
all hours through
how was your day?
who talked to you?
did you keep on laughing,
or cried to?
did you thought of me?
or the pictures i send?
i wanna be your mailman
sneak up your driveway
when it's just you there
though i'd watch you being
no matter when or where
i wish you would start noticing
who lets my phone ring,
who makes my heart sing.
dinsdag 11 maart 2014
erase
all i could think about
were numbers and names
erase, erase, erase
the numbers on these pages
the names of all my places
double standards, vague lies
how many feelings in one body?
how many thoughts in my veins?
still it wont keep me from trying
but trying for what because
was i confused or did i just simply forgot?
~sev.
dinsdag 25 februari 2014
if so, tell me
i'm trying so hard
i never understand
i'm screaming so hard
without hearts without hands
i want to BE so hard
i am a pile of sand
i hate my thoughts
cause they're so clear
i hate myself
for self crushing fear
it's fear or love
but am i one of the above?
do i know anything?
do the things i know mean anything?
to me? to people? to anyone?
are they worth a dime?
am i the only one in line?
do i even need to question?
do i want to do this perfectly,
or go on like this endlessly?
~sev.
stars don't only shine at night
if the way i dance leads you on
i guess i should stay still so you can move on
if my headbopping and sipping on wine
draws attraction to my mouth, not my mind
than move along
cause i came here to party
maybe bring somebody home
not for the afterparty
but to share our favourite song
have a smoke with me
out of touch with time
have a sip with me
i can't promise we will be fine
~sev.
donderdag 20 februari 2014
is it ever though?
you know how my feelings for you work right?
on and off, like a knob or a butt
in your face and out again
demons and angels, in any extent
don't even have to lie any longer
wishing i could stop yours from getting any stronger
oh you know, how did it not stopped you from being a fool?
the way my eyes glitched in the dark
the way you fervently longed for that spark
did it ever came? darling did i do it again?
im trying, keeping me sane
if it's not natural, than is it inhumane?
~sev.
dinsdag 18 februari 2014
mad sounds
sitting there and watching all the faces
enjoying the ride but been to all these places
worn out like a tennis shoe but still you wonder.
~sev.
come on come on
with glowing eyes
in all the parts
of our unstable lives
you try and try
there's no such thing as winning
no end nor beginning
i hope you fuck yourself up
and find you again
cause there's no way but up
after finding yourself in these drains.
two thousand lightyears from home
i need them to see
give me your words
so im able to speak
tell me your thoughts
to open up my ears
and give me your heart
everytime you're near.
but if there's a crack showing up
i'll count on you.
maandag 10 februari 2014
bae
little by little
my heart drowns in your words
my head drowns in your voice
my fingertips in your soul
tryna make it whole
~sev.
donderdag 6 februari 2014
where the heart is
oh you read all your books good
and listen to all your tapes
hanging up the posters
of ones who once were great
you say you're into art
well baby that's just great
all i see is stars
and lost friends on your blade
but tell me, how do you feel?
~svl.
dinsdag 4 februari 2014
you you you
all your flaws and all your fakes
you with all your words and feelings
with all your meaningless meanings
with all your bullshit and your ugly thoughts
with all your highs and lows and
degrading and devoting and adoring and despising
with your parades and disguising
you with all your acts and gestures
with all your well-picked lines and failing cures
i will not fall today.
~sev.
zondag 2 februari 2014
To every visitor,
Every poem you will now scroll through, is from the past.
I selected them from my old blog, faketalesofsev, which had loads of bullshit on it as well.
ALL of it, I wrote by myself, unless stated otherwise.
Hope you enjoy (:
~sev.
A story: writers (not by me)
I once dated a writer
Writers are forgetful,
but they remember everything.
They forget appointments and anniversaries,
but remember what you wore,
how you smelled,
on your first date…
They remember every story you’ve ever told them -
like ever,
but forget what you’ve just said.
They don’t remember to water the plants
or take out the trash,
but they don’t forget how
to make you laugh.
Writers are forgetful
because
they’re busy
remembering
the important things.
december 10, 2013
i was born
an old soul
and everyone was fine with me
i grew tall
grew wide
untill they could not let me be
they danced on my heart
poured wine on my skin
i tried to tell stop
but they were already in
as they ate all my flesh
and killed all my flees
they lived their own lives
and days were all seized
friday, january 31, 2014
we could be heroes, just for one day
craving the new
craving that thing
we all want to do
lets have a good one
come and hit the road
don't stop till we're done
i'll take care of us both
sunday, january 26, 2014
you've never mentioned me before
you've never mentioned me before.
out of all the things you said
my name dropped like hailstones do
cause you've never mentioned me before.
and i swear just last night
i heard it again, ringing through
i never liked holding my pillow thight
but it's just that you've never mentioned me before.
i would've noticed if you did,
would've asked all my friends about it,
but no, you've never mentioned me before.
was it the dress i wore the other day,
or the gawky things i always say,
babe, you've never mentioned me before.
i don't really have that much to loose,
but i'm stuck on the things i'm supposed to do
how, you've never mentioned me before.
i can't wait to hear it more.
friday, january 24, 2014
still got my money
that look upon my face
i never meant for it to be there
it's just a part i can't erase.
have you ever heard the words
i speak when i'm all naked
i can't tell wrong from right
bad habits that i've always hated.
have you ever read my thoughts
when no one is around
when my head is severly aching
and my soul completely drowned.
thursday, january 23, 2014
judging a book. by it's cover.
with a cover full of amazing artwork
quotes, pictures, fanmail and fun
but you won't let me open you
either the pages you contain
are too white
or too dark.
monday, january 20, 2014
heartbreakers
Is she all you had?
Is she there to answer all the questions in your head?
Is she there to narrow all tensions running bad?
Does she catch your eye like a stranger?
Do you love the insane and the sane her?
Does she make you feel right in place, right at time, in perfect pace?
Does she makes it feel like living life and not a phase?
Do you see her standing looking like a statue goddess?
Does she do the things that make her look modest?
Did you saw through to her and lost faith in you?
Did you stopped believing after acknowledging the human soul?
Did you stopped dreaming this was everything you wanted to?
Did you stopped adoring after you saw her as you see you?
Cunt.
sunday, september 15, 2013
dirty
sad sight seeying
the morning felt as if being on the edge of a fall
but breakfast taught me nothing will ever change at all
i'm milk inside a bowl, with frosted flakes of lies
it's worse that i'm the milk because the lies are all mine
i'm never sure about you, never sure you're all it
but every night you're not with me i wonder who you're with
i should've never called you names
i should've never played your games
i should've kissed you on your head
i should've saved me instead
i still wonder what to do
i've been everybody's fool
i've been everybody's sweetheart
til the day i got caught
i slaughtered my own kingdom
i bath in blood of sin
i dine with headless guilt pawns
telling me i'll never win
friday, september 13, 2013
endure and injure
Am here
I've waited all this time
I don't need more
I've had my spot in line
It's my turn now make me shine
Make me shine just like you said
I've been here waiting
I'm in shreds
Flat iron fix me with your hands
Dress me up and build my roof
I'll get there fast, i'll be there soon
Have all my hopes up
Don't let me down
You said you will
But I've been waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting..
I
Am here
Just like everyone staring and feeling
We're screaming but no one is hearing
And we want our money back
And we want our land
We want to change but
A plan is a plan
And we are the pawns
We are just people
Walk over me and
Forget how I feel
You said so much of this and that
But you've made our home a rotting wreck
The air is so thick of smoke and fog
I can't even walk through all this mess
I
Am here
Full of regret
But I don't have a choice
I lay this upon you
I know I'm just noise
I'll bet it don't matter
You´ll dont understand
But that is what makes it
So perfectly mad
My sacrifice is and
Always will
Your every nightmare
Your most predominant kill
friday, september 6, 2013
brick by brick by brick
nauseating and humid
i cant see the sun
but they hung up a lightbulb
it doesnt function the way they want to
it doesnt fry my brain even if i wanted to
what a pity it effects you
what a shame of a perfectly good brain
how unfortunate to turn into a fish
how sad to be served as their homemade dish
you see me through the damp and i see you
if you'd like it could just be us two
and we'll get there eventually
conditionally being us perpetually
sunday, september 1, 2013
deeper reaper
what if he sits here right between us
what if he never says a single word
but always knows exactly what to say
what if he is all world's wisdom
what if he is all of the rich folks
what if you never ever saw him coming in your life
but he was waiting armes spread wide
it could all be over now
i swear you'll be right on my mind
and when the reaper swings
i'll count the times
you were with me and will still be
cause you're forever her with me
saturday, august 17, 2013
just for a few days
i walked on water
it rose above me
transformed in a maze
it's too troubled for see through
it's too dense to breathe through
i swam in water
i thought for a few miles
but it turned out to be an ocean
swimming the yards while
drinking some what galleons
and eating the fish
rotten and smelly
my body to the bottom
turned inside out
seaghost haunting.
thursday, august 15, 2013
you will call me by my name
you will burn in piles of shame
you will sing your holy songs
but i have known you all along
i was the one who walked with you
i was the one who walked you through
who was the girl with the death stabbed back
who was the girl turned in a trainwreck
you oughta think more before you speak, son
you oughta think more, do you enjoy your fun?
is your life even real
does your heart even feel
does your brain connect
to feelings being facts
it's proved scientifically
butterflies terrifically
liar liar, feet on fire
walk on water
thanks, don't bother.
thursday, august 15, 2013
so sick
i might as well be more than me
i might as well be more this week
i might as well be less as weak
i will be your mother, child just see
inside the evil is growing
but i won't let it take over my eyes
inside the devil is showing
but darling don't fear,
i don't have much to disguise
if god wants me in heaven
baby doll just close your eyes
if god wants me to meet him
it's greater than sickness or crime
doctor oh doctor, i'm not sure i want to live
but doctor oh doctor,
tell me you you have something to give
sunday, august 11, 2013
People
i am a beast
and no one wants to be around me
i am a fairytale
i am a dream
but everyone is annoyed with me
i am a fighter
i am the pain
i am the enemy, they think i am insane
i am the thinker
i am the books
i have so much more to give than looks
i am the sea
i am the wind
i stand where i go
and go where i stand
i wish there was someone
who was somewhat like me
without adapting, we could just be.
sunday, august 11, 2013
Our Things
a tale of two souls
a song of them lovers
a song with no words
a pulse of rhytm
a pulse of melody
a breathe of two mouths
a breathe in one theme
one word or one whisper
one thought and one hiss
changes things into the end of bliss
take in your last moments
kiss now your goodbyekiss.
thursday, august 8, 2013
cake
fuck fuck fuck
oh
my god
drink all the cups
deep down i'll see love
look through the liquor
right through the glass
i cant see Elvis dancing
i dont see Johnny Cash
all there is left
is kitchen dried cake
i don't know how i'll fall asleep
don't know how much i can take
everyone knows
i'm going to break
everyone knows
my head is too vague
monday, august 5, 2013
Parc benches
crossing over, stopped at signs
like beasts they all ran over
for their jobs and other plans
he shoved his paper twice that day
with titles of them men
all it took was one day
to cross over, ran over him
all it took was one night
to end on Moral Parc's bench
walk tall, girl, walk in tall boots
walk all the malls you can
walk girl, taller than all of them
easter is always the same
summer doesnt start no more
no summer for insane
sunday, august 4, 2013
cheaters
i count the minutes till they look at me
its my turn just look away
this is not how i thought my day would be
and so im chewed out, spit on, raped all naked
endure the pain girl, go on fake it
just a few more seconds and than its done
and like a cd they move on to the next one
chew em spit rape and cut em
wide open on the rooms table.
says i'll keep your secret save with me
exchanged our blood, my excuse to cheat.
friday, july 26, 2013
Looking for more
He ought to see the world
But he only witnessed Death
Mr Watson flew 20 miles and beyond
He ought to see the stars
But he only saw our lawns
Mr Watson drove 20 inch and forgot
Remembered as he saw his keys
His family is all he needs, all he's got.
monday, july 15, 2013
the world
it fell and left it's soul
if you wander far enough
it's yours to love and be loved.
would run and scream away
follow the world right into the hole
you'd be warned about this dark black soul.
thursday, june 27, 2013
Looks
in a pit of our shit
but at least together.
we cleaned it all up
made it our home
did it with love
until flowers began to grow.
it was beautiful but then one day
my very best doll
picked one away.
she screeched as one flower made her bleed
"it's a fake!" she told me,
"a fake from their seed!"
we sat and wondered, looked around
it was so piteous, to hear her heart pound
i knew, yeah, i knew for a while
the difference is, i never touched
i liked the look of it way too much
wednesday, june 26, 2013
Waterfalls
their childhood was insane
she can't keep up with her mom
he can't take care of his son
they all have seen the end
to die young or pretend
is their drive, the last light
the salvation for the night
just one more bloody drink
'i can't see shit, i can't think'
tomorrow is not here
invulnerable for fear
their souls are solid walls
eternal burning waterfalls
monday, june 17, 2013
Sleep
With the top of my head bare
I came here restless
With no soul ever to spare
I came here quietly
A ghost between men
I came here defeated
My hands unbend
I came with eyes
But not to see
I came with ears
But not to hear
I came to sing
I came to mourn
I came to sleep
With thoughts sour
They caught the smoke I walked in today
They caught the laughter I laughed all day
They tasted my people, my world, my play
All for nothing, all to pay.
monday, may 20, 2013
On and on and on and on
of files and piles
soggy cheeks
and dreadful eyes
swollen feet
my hands are tied
work my way around the clock
a scheduled unintentional mock
thursday, february 28, 2013
I've seen this place in dreams
I'd like to know how I would be without
It only brings me nothing but trouble
And leaves me an ocean without origin and proud
monday, november 26, 2012
Lost in wavy paths and falling in
The holes of my pockets, they've turned so deep
Out of them the voices whisper what my eyes can´t see
sunday november 18, 2012
This needs a keen eye, with perseverance, without sigh.
sunday november 18, 2012
I heard a tale of a city, now ruines, so old
Of a prince and a dame, uttermost bold
They fought against their thorns and traps
And in one eye failed,
Cause they bled to death
And they carried on, had them buried at once
Turned their rather proudly bodies
And fooled new minds with tricks and stunts
They never noticed, the sketchy old cunts,
and will never see, will never know,
That the hands of the dead loving corpses,
never let each other go.
sunday, november 11, 2012
my bed is fucking bold
my wheels are fucking wack
my sobriety will never come back
my shoes are dead at end and gone
my life is long fulfilled and haunt
my ghost will not even take the time
for silly living and silly whines.
thursday, october 4, 2012
nooit zegt wat hij bedoelt
nooit knippert als hij lacht
nooit praat, hij fluistert zacht
geen haren op zijn hoofd
zijn blik al net zo dood
geen woorden op zijn tong
nooit danste en nooit zong
zijn hoofd zwaar en vol
zijn hart leeg en hol
die jongen is van mij
onzichtbaar kijkt hij blij
~sev.
wednesday, september 26, 2012
he doesn't seem to have much interest
in the color of her lips and her newest purchases
doesn't care for her slang but carries on his chases
cause he realised that once he, just him
approaches her alone
it's not her head but her heart speaking
and she sometimes needs her day off from the throne.
thursday, september 6, 2012
I don't get it anymore,
How do they get in this rotating bore?
School ain't bad in a small town like this
I wish I went, got oceans of time
Alas, ran out of words to rhyme
Not longer calling my own body mine
My ceiling became my best friend
His are the only parties I attend
And the pages of the books I read
Started looking back at me
"19, Female, not seeking for gold
I need a human soul
To show me cafés and sunsets in Paris"
With all those gazes in this town
I get tóó quickly tóó embaressed
And when I scream my feet shiver
And when I eat I smell and taste liver
And my saliva feels like blood
Well, maybe it is,
Maybe it's an up, close & personal flood
thursday, september 6, 2012
monday, september 3, 2012
and
air can hurt
air can easily bring you dirt
it's safe to say that
there's more than meets the eye
because the most,
air is a pretty little lie
tuesday, august 28, 2012
i took in beautiful colors
and learned how to paint
didn't study much numbers
but knew how to acquaint
various stories through many drawings
and long gone lives full of mockings
my place became the biggest piece
the basics unable to retrieve
the pink caressing my flaws and words
the yellow accenting all the thirst
the sun falling down the window pane
creating an atmospheric shadowframe
and in the winter it's coated up
with snow and wishes and hope and luck.
tuesday, may 1, 2012
Zij is bruin
Zij is wit
Zij heeft alles in bezit
Mooie lach met witten tanden
Mooie kin en kaakranden
Zij is wit
Zij is bruin
Maar zij ligt ook niet in de puin
Ze danst als een ster op de oceaan
Niemand die zal denken aan weggaan
Zij is bruin
Zij is wit
Zij en zij, zij zijn met pit
Zij, zei zij, zij zijn blij
Maar ik?
Ik ben karamel
Net niet, net wel.
saturday january 28, 2012
i hope it's you
but it's just my alarm clock
telling me what to do